It has been some time since my last blog and I figured it was time to post something new. I don’t really have a topic for this blog though. I’m thinking it just may end up being random thoughts about events in my life.
I would first like to thank all those you have read my blog postings and a special thank you for those you have contacted me with feedback about what I have written on this site. I do hope that those who have taken the time to read my blogs have gotten something out of them. I know I have.
So, where to begin?
The last posting I did was about whether or not I thought I should stay a member of the Courage group I was attending. The reason for this was I didn’t feel totally welcomed within the group. I’m one of those people that do not like to be where they don’t feel welcomed. Well, the other day I had a conversation with one of the other members of this group. We talked a little about the group and why I started to attend. The main reason was because I was looking to make some new friends. I don’t really have a lot of them, and hardly any gay ones. Anyways, I pretty much explained all this too him. Well, the day of the meeting this month, I was going to go and give it one more try when I got a call from another member of the group saying the meeting wasn’t going to be that night. I was shocked that someone called me and let me know that we were not going to have a meeting. He also said he was going to call me within the next week or two so we could all hang out. We will see if that happens though.
Lately it seems like I have been down. I’m not really sure why. I think it’s just looking at life and seeing where I am and comparing that to where I think I should be. I know someday I will get there, but some days it just seems tougher than others to not look back at things and say only if I would have done things differently. What if I would have stuck with getting a degree in Mechanical Drafting instead of switching majors to Computer Information Systems? Would I have a better job now and just have to work one job to pay the bills and have some extra spending money? Will I ever find a job working in the computer field? Will my web design business ever take off?
I know I should look back and see all the blessing God has given me. But lately it just seems harder to focus on that, like I know I should. It also seems difficult to focus on building the web design business I want to start. I’m not really sure when this funk will be over, but I do hope soon.
I’m not really sure what else to write about today and seeing I am in a funk; I think I will end it here. I do hope who ever reads this is doing well. I do have several ideas for future blogs. Look for them in the near future.